Friday, December 4, 2009
kissing the seconds away at 8:28 PM

Well, same old same old. M.I.A for a lil while. it’s been 3 months counting since i joined tarian that i’ve been involved in everyday practices for upcoming performances. Somehow, i feel a lil of backstabbing, because as a newcomer im chosen to perform instead of the ones’ that has been training everyday just to be selected. I don’t get it why cikgu just won’t pick them instead of rushing me to memorize their dance routine by the end of the day. The thing i hate the most is catching up. So pretty much i don’t give a damn if i don’t get selected rather than rushing. However not, on the bright side is that, i find myself enjoying in every piece of performances. So ya. Im not even sure if i should feel guilty in that part of enjoying myself. An update, i effing hate zapin. Pfft! And guess what, during my presentation, this was what i got from the head of tarian;
“cg wants you to come for extra practice tomorrow” (when there isn’t s’pose to have any training)
“cg also wants you to come at 4 today” (an hour early unlike the usual 5:30pm timing)
Neh, you should know how my reaction would be like when i got the msg. Hmmmmm........ gah. So 5 other dancers including myself have to learn another dance routine for open house which is on the 2010 ! like a long way to go la. & within that one day he wanted us to memorize it in 2 hours time. The good thing was it was only 2 minutes dance so ya. Counting: 3 dance routine to remember and brush up. OH WAIT. Make that 4 because the International Student Festival (ISF) would be here so i have to re-call my MUSE finale dance steps. *APPLAUSE* thanks eh (: im enjoying the “torturism“ very much. Lain kali buat 24hours skali k. During the process of my open house dance, my thigh suddenly went so wrong. The muscle pulled so like wtf that i just had to hug it tightly and prayed so hard. I can’t believe the fact that i almost wanted to cry. The pain was serious shit unbearable. (pfft: it was candid. so ya stop smiling/laughing/giggling -.-)Cg had to wait before i could finally stand back up before we could start the whole practice again. & it took me a minute or two before i could feel my thigh again. The next morning, both my thigh was seriously in pain. Then i saw my left thigh has this green patch of blue black. Hu-wah it look like ..... GAH. Somehow remind me about the previous blue black tt i got. The following day, both my thigh still hurts. When i was wearing my jeans, guess what i saw ? a total shocker. It took me 2 days to realize this fugly totally disgusting and awfully painful green patch+scar blue black. OKGO BEST. Well i really got nothing much to say with my current condition. My post is like about my ig. Whatever it is, no matter how much you complaint about a thing, when you love doing what you do, there’s nothing stopping you. Having math module like right now, and im officially switching off my brain as from today til the weekends before hectic weekdays began again.

eew, this was on the right thigh. can you see the veins omg i soo couldn't bare looking at it. *GAG* much. pfft.

DITCHED, Counting the number of my soulless days.
If i stop running after you, would you still be here?
I just can’t keep on running, it stops here
i don’t want to keep on chasing light.
this is dedicated to -
&& this is dedicated to;

IM A WHINNER, DISOWNED ME